this is for all the tired, depressed housewife-mommas of the world! dont get me wrong i love my family and will do anything they want or ask for but i have mental issues i cant control.... nothin that are dangerous but annoying at times, ive been with Jim 13+ total, we have a 10 yr old boy, Micheal, hes truly my biggest blessing, i went through hell to carry him to term and the labor almost killed us both, some people say theyd do anything for a child, i feel i went through all you could, minus mornin sickness!!! odd huh? gallstones, diabetes, high b/p, 7 months bed rest, pre mature labor, bleeding, and when i went into labor i didnt get the joy of easing and building into it i was instantly having pains every 30 secs to a minute apart with no warnings before hand....
made it to the hosp, started pushing almost as soon as i arrived, micheals heart beat went down to almost nothing and my b/p went up to stroke level, his head came out but he got stuck, then they had to knock me out for a crash c section, with everything happening so fast i didnt have time to scream but when they had to put him back in me i let loose then lol then i either passed out or the medicine to knock me out kicked in, in all it took 2 hours total.
the whole time im in labor i kept thinkin and sayin its supposed to last 12 hours!!! id rather go through 100s of labors without drugs than EVER have gallstones again, thank god i had my gall blatter removed
ok nough bout that, i have also lost 2 babys, one 6 months before mike and a boy when mike was 5-6, the miscarriages made my depression, and anxiety, ptsd and other things get outta hand, if you have experinced any of the above maybe we can become friends as you read my blog, im BIG on entering sweepstakes, reading *a book a day* freebies, and chatting, i dont have any friends offline, people scare me so other than this im pretty withdrawn... well this is the begining of a glimpse into me, more to follow.... :-)
